changes in my life are what keep me awake. otherwise, i find myself falling asleep at work or while watching tv or even while cooking. not sleeping in the literal sense in that i have narcolepsy. asleep in a way that makes me feel like i am going through life in a fog that makes everything dull. i find myself on autopilot and completely disengaged from what i'm doing. there have been times where i've suddenly come to and realized that i had no idea what i did the past hour because i was so removed from my reality. that is my narcolepsy.
but changes keep me up and alert! but not bad changes (see previous post); good ones like a new job or a new apartment or a new boyfriend. all these things make me excited to get up and go! as cliche as that sounds.
i sometimes wonder if i will become one of those people who jump from job to job from sheer boredom. not the worst thing i could do, but also not the best thing that i could do, either. i'm hoping that continuing a career in marketing will help me spin this odd tendency in a positive way, but we'll see about that.
